Update of an Update:

So yeah, not taking the Stackers anymore. THEY MADE ME A COMPLETE (excuse my french) A B*TCH. I don't know why. Maybe that's the reason me and the boyfriend are calling it quits. Cause I was so b*tchy??? You got me man.

So nooooow, I'm back to house hunting and apartment shopping. OMG I hate it. With a passion. I now remember why I agreed to move in together in the first place. TO AVOID WHAT I'M DOING NOW. I've had a long day of looking at stinky, dumpy apartments and over priced houses. I just wanna go home and take a long bath. HMPH, I think that's just what I'll do... In four more hours after I pick up Chris from work UUUGGGHH!

On My Mind Again

I'm eating tomato soup and grilled cheese, but the only thing on my mind is S-U-S-H-I! But then again, what else is new? People in Japan are so freakin lucky...

To Post or Not To Post

Yup that's the question. It's so hard to blog three times a week (and not on the same day, lol) when I don't have internet! I live too far out in the sticks. Grrrr

Sushi Anyone???

Btw, if anyone would ever like to meet up for sushi sometime, I'm down. I love sushi and meeting new people =)

Pepper Burps?

Oh man, I feel odd. I dunno if I can take these Stackers! I've felt like the pill has been stuck in my throat for the last two hours. I feel it everytime I swallow. Odd. Odd. Odd.

And also...I know this is gross... It's making me burp, and when I do, it tastes like PEPPER! Eww!

Diet Daze

So on my quest to get healthy and lose a few pounds... I've started taking Stacker 3's. Yeah I know... most people wouldn't use healthy and Stacker 3 in the same sentence. But I have no will power. So, I must resort to diet pills. Today is the second day. I'm definitely not hungry... Yesterday I took one after lunch and I felt like a crack head! I had tons of energy and talked incessantly, and it lasted all night. Now this morning is a totally different story. I woke up around 6am like usual. Took a Stacker. Now i feel like crap. My stomach hurts and I'm kinda crabby, everything is getting on my nerves. Especially my boyfriend who is sitting beside me singing in a girl's voice to a man's song... UUUGGGHHH!!! I ate an apple for breakfast because it says not to take on an empty stomach. Guess an apple wasn't suffice. I'll probably have my usual Subway for lunch, then I'll take another pill and see how it goes. I can't wait for my taxes to get here. I've been looking at ellipticals here lately. I love those things. I can do three miles easy, all shiny with sweat and grinnin the whole way. Very low impact on the body. Good investment indeed.

Gran Torino

I went and saw Gran Torino last night. Good times. At first I thought it was a very prejudice movie.. but it was all part of the story line once it was all said and done. Clint Eastwood is getting so old. But he's still an amazing actor. I wasn't expecting the ending, but it was still a really good movie none the less. So was Eagle Eye. I highly recommend both movies.

Sleepy Saturdays? No way!

Does anyone else think our English professor's mannerisms slightly resemble Kramer off Seinfeld? I love my ENG 101 class. He definitely makes sure no one falls asleep on a Saturday! Thank God!

A Member Of The Nerd Herd

So I joined my English Professor's book club. I'm super excited. Does that make me a nerd? LOL, oh well if it does. Feels kinda like "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants-ish" Ha ha!

I think today after classes I'll make a pit stop by the library to pick up the first book, The Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut Jr. Sounds interesting. Like nothing I've ever read before that's for sure... I wonder what it's about?

Transition Smition...

I am gonna have to break down and get satellite for my tv. Great. I have put off and put off getting a converter coupon and now... it's too late! Grrrr

One Should Plan Ahead It Seems

This morning I narrowly avoided humiliation in my local super-grocery store. I'd held certain items back to the end of the line so that they could be bagged together and then hustled out to the car. It's kind of this OCD thing I do, a place for everything and everything has a place. Plus, it's freezin out there today. Brrrr.

I shop by myself, but on occasions, my boyfriend goes with me. On the chance that this would be one of those occasions, it was my desire to keep a few select things from amongst my purchases away from his eyes.

Additionally, my washer and dryer were in need of some repairs. I purchased the items I needed for this purpose along with the groceries. I wanted them segregated so that they wouldn't get tossed (and then forgotten) into the general population of stuff.

And I got a snack.

I held these items to the end of the conveyor belt, placing the standard groceries in front. But when I viewed the grouping I was holding till the end together, I thought better of my plan and hastily scattered the items throughout the remainder of my groceries. Separately, most of the items would have raised no concerns. But the particular combination of items I'd wanted to be bagged separately was a little…odd. What do you think?

Some new black panties and a matching bra.
A can of WD-40.
Two rolls of duct-tape.
One large box of condoms.
A chocolate bar.

Oh my...

Fear Fear Itself

Think, think, think... that's all I seem to do these days... Whether it's the good, the bad, or the ugly. My mind races with never ending questions, comments, and ideas so that no single moment is sacred anymore. How do I rediscover myself? I like to think I'm doing just that.

Why do I feel like I'm here for everyone to take from? Why do I allow them to take? Take my mind, my heart, and in the end, my spirit... Why do I not even realize my own self worth enough to demand the best? Why do I question myself and why is it that I'm so hard to love? Or maybe I'm too easy to love, so much so that the love turns into being taken advantage of... I'm tired of knowing I deserve the best but being ok with whatever...

I'm done, no more... I will not give into words being written, emotional phone calls, lack of communication or promises that I know are so hollow. I must change this patten that I bring upon myself. I've always been so afraid of change but it's about time I get over that fear, for fear will only make me weak.

In The Dark

Yup, I am sitting in the dark at my house. And not by choice. I came home today from a long stressful day at school hoping to enjoy a nice hot bath and a good book.... Only to find that my garage door wouldn't open. I've been having problems with it lately so I didn't think much about it. I jumped out of the Jeep and ran my freezing cold butt through the side door and manually lifted it. That thing is heavy! On my way in the house I noticed the lights wouldn't come on in the kitchen. What the hell???

I was expecting a package for my business, so I go to the front door to see if at least that had arrived (it's a week overdue), nope, no package. But what I did find was a piece of paper wedged between the glass doors. A disconnect statement from the utilities company! Those little assh.... well, anyways...

I had made payment arrangements with them the week prior. What in the world was going on? So I give them a call. By now it's six o'clock at night. I get some after hours guy that could care less what was happening, and probably gets irate people calling him at all hours of the night, screaming about how miserable their life is without power. Try as I may- he tells me I will have to come in, in the morning, and talk with someone else. Great. There goes my relaxing night.

So, I sit here, by candlelight, thinking about the many other things I had decided to blog about. The "battery low" warning light continously blinking in my eye. Yeah, good luck buddy. You want some electricity to power you up, like I want a good hot bath to power me down.